No matter how many times I think about it... I always end up with the same thought. Logan being my one and only son, the very reason I live. What runs through his mind ever day when he wakes up knowing his dad isnt home? Does he really understand where I am? Will he grow up remembering his daddy being away so long? Regardless I owe all the fight, all the will power, to my son. I honestly wouldnt have made it if it were not for him. I reflect back on the last moment I saw him. I held back the tears. Funny thing was I didnt actually show emotion until I heard the song that was playing on the radio when I dropped him off. "If You Only Knew" By Shinedown. Everytime I hear this song I think of him. I love you Logan Adrian.
Now on a lighter note, Ive been running through the possibilties of the next year. Its scary, im not gonna lie, im as nervous as a long taled cat in a room full of rocking chairs...
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Jon, I hope this comes out right, I sometimes think you may be right in the way you feel cuz I too as you know went through divorce and it change my life,but who knows if life would of been better or worse,we'll never know,but one thing I do know is that I would never change anything about have my four children as hard was it was at times. We can just take one day at a time be strong as I know you are and you did when you went through all the tuff and disappointing times and made it through it and to do what you are doing now. You are a strong, brave man to have come this far in your life So you keep strong and have the faith. Love your Mom
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