The Unsolved Problem?

I often sit and wonder about the problems we face everyday. In everyone's life, We have problems to solve. Whether it be… Bills, work, family or even relationships.

Even in the strongest relationship, there are problems to overcome. We often find it easy to give up when confronted with these problems and difficulties.

Or fool ourselves into believing that perfection can be found somewhere else.

But true happiness and a lasting relationship are found when you look inside yourself for solutions to the problems. Instead of blaming the other person and walking away when things get tough, Look for compromise and forgiveness. Caring is not a matter of convenience. It is a commitment of one soul to another. And if we generously give ourselves to the other person. Then both lives are enriched. The problems will come and go, just like the changing seasons. But unselfish love is constant and everlasting.

True To Yourself

Believe in your heart
Something wonderful is about to happen
Love your life
Believe in your own powers
Your own potential, and in your own internal goodness
Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day as magnificent
Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day
Reach within to find your own Individuality
Amaze yourself and galvanize those around you to the potential of each new day
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect; this is the substance of your humanity
Let those who love you help you
Trust enough to be able to take
Look with hope to the horizon of today, for today is all we truly have
Live this day to the fullest extent
Let a little sun out as well as in
Create your own rainbows
Be open to all your possibilities
All possibilities and Miracles
Believe in Miracles

Melancholy Or Phlegmatic

That seems to be the question at this early hour. So yeah I cant sleep, I'm full of thought and I'm listening to music. Its been a trying week. But what would one expect. After all if it were easy then everyone would enlist. And we all know we have allot of cowards among us. So anyway I'm going off on a bit of a tangent from what I was originally posting about. So I'm thinking about personalities, and under what category I would fall under. Although I see myself as more Phlegmatic, and possibly Melancholic. Would it necessarily be a bad thing if I was a little Sanguine as well? Basically I'm a melting pot of many personality types. Boiled all into one genuine personality. Specific just to me... Now how do you see yourself?

Good Morning,

So I'm a bit tired this morning. But nonetheless I'm here, as if I have a choice... So yeah anyway last night I was talking to a friend online. And we were talking about how people always say when something goes wrong, that it happens for a reason. After some of the bad luck I've been through the last thing I want to hear is, "Everything happens for a reason". Besides I'm not sold on that philosophy. I believe more in that each and everyone of us are free falling from the sky. Like a snow flakes... (don't laugh just yet) Some fast, some slow. Some looking different then others. Each and everyone of us starts by falling, obviously in the same direction. But a sudden gust of wind changes are direction, and bumps us into each other, changing are characteristics. We might actually stick together then another gust of wind could break us apart. The point I'm trying to make is that not always are we in control over how we live our lives. We are manipulated by a wide range of things. For instance we can get the best education and still because of the job market or unemployment were still at square one. Were not the only ones in control of our destiny. Yeah we can work as hard as we can to keep going in the same direction but ultimately any force can knock you so far off course that its impossible to stay going in the same direction. I adopted this philosophy after my failed relationships. Those who know me know I was married twice. Both of which ended in divorce. Unfortunately these women in my life felt that nothing was worth working on and cheated. This of course as it would anyone. set my life in a bit of a spin. Ive adjusted and recovered, learned from my mistakes. But I'm not the same person anymore. They were the force that knocked me off course and set me off in a different direction. I hope i haven't rambled on to much. I'm in no way dismissing anyone Else's philosophy i just have my own set of beliefs...

Well today was an ok day. Been placing orders all day, Had coffee from Dunks courtesy of my mom. Thanks mom. And lets not forget that Almond poundcake... it was awesome. Still have a ton on my mind, and of course missing Logan like crazy.

OPSEC

I have a hard time being dishonest. Thats precisly why I have a hard time not telling family and friends about where exactly I am going. Understand, this afterall is the military. And they have this thing called OPSEC that prohibates giving away key information. On a good note, Another day is down...

Thoughts of the Unknown

No matter how many times I think about it... I always end up with the same thought. Logan being my one and only son, the very reason I live. What runs through his mind ever day when he wakes up knowing his dad isnt home? Does he really understand where I am? Will he grow up remembering his daddy being away so long? Regardless I owe all the fight, all the will power, to my son. I honestly wouldnt have made it if it were not for him. I reflect back on the last moment I saw him. I held back the tears. Funny thing was I didnt actually show emotion until I heard the song that was playing on the radio when I dropped him off. "If You Only Knew" By Shinedown. Everytime I hear this song I think of him. I love you Logan Adrian.

Now on a lighter note, Ive been running through the possibilties of the next year. Its scary, im not gonna lie, im as nervous as a long taled cat in a room full of rocking chairs...

Back To Work

So im on my way to Indiana to finish my last month of MOB training for heading to Afghanistan. i have to tell you theres alot of feelingd running through my mind. From uncertainty of whats to come, to thinking about my son as he copes with the absence of his daddy and his best buddy. oh and i cant forget VP an amazing women that i have gotten to know and respect. and honestly has left me in complete awe. ive got to admit its a little strange departing nh, its hard getting over that feeling of believing youll be home in a few weeks. instead i need tp keep reminding myself of the span of time in which ill be gone. its un nerving, but as tough as it is leaving home, friends and family. i know ill make it through. i hope for those of you that have never served, you understand the incredible sacrific our brave men and women of the united states military make to country and family. next time your complaining of some small inconveniance, or your of the long line at the fatty burger. step back and remember those that are serving far from home living under constant fear of the end, eating MREs or sleeping in a fighting position... be greatful of your freedom. i love each and every one of you.j